Liwanag sa dilim

Whooooooohhhh...

Taking a deep breath really helps a lot.

I've been working freelance for the past 2 months. And so far, I'm not having any calls for a new regular job yet maybe becaaauuuuuuse I'm not even applying...

or certainly becaaaauuuuse I'm not yet loving the idea of being employed anytime soon. :)

Oh yes, as if I don't have any bills to pay for. Have no stuffs I'm dying to shop for. No night-outs to splurge at. And nooooooo credit card debts to settle. Oh meeyyynnn!!!

Hahahahaha...yup! I'm really in need of money, don't you think????

But how come I can still say to myself..."ayoko na maging empleyado!"

Actually hinde ko din alam kumbaket ang tapang ng apog ko sabihin 'yan.

I don't even know how to face all the predicaments of being unemployed.

As if I don't even care if I lost my monthly comfort zone.

Parang wala yata akong planong ibalik 'yon. At parang wala akong pakealam sa mga tumatawag sa akin araw-araw na credit card call center agents at naniningil ng aking "minimum balance due". Which is an understatement, because the amount is already blowing up!

I had this little book with words of faith and wisdom, having the proverb saying,

"Look at the birds and frail flowers, for they neither sow nor reap, but your heavenly Father feeds them." (Matt. 6:26)

For me, it's true. And these has guided me all this time.

I always thought, I couldn't live and satisfy myself if I would lose my job and not have my monthly income. Sabi ko no'n..."HINDE PWEDEEEEE!!! Hinde ako mabubuhay! Paano na ang mga cards ko, ang mga pang-shopping ko, ang mga bills, ang sustento ng nanay ko, paano na'ko kung wala akong trabaho???"

At this point in my life, I'm still working hard, but minus the cubicles, officemates, bosses, outings and payslips. I'm still working hard to earn every little centavo needed to suffice my daily needs, short-term and long-term. Same thing, but in a different way.

I'm now working independently. I might not be looking for clients as hard as I should be, but apparently, they come to me as if they can hear me calling their names. And I'm thankful God never cease from providing.

I realized now, if I haven't lost my job and monthly finances, I wouldn't know how to work harder, to save more, and to value the talent He has given me. I wouldn't know how valuable I am.

And I wouldn't see myself thanking God all the time.

Eventhough I'm facing a crisis of being unemployed...I have no worries as big as the sky...because I know, every problem, huge or small, has it's own way out of my life. God is bigger than my troubles so why should I be afraid??

And after every storm, is the sun still shining, bringing hope to a new day.

So smile...and be contented.

But remember, life doesn't work on miracles alone. :)

Work + God = Contentment

"Liwanag"