How does it feel?

Hmmm...I know it's not the right time to go senti...lalo na 9 days na lang, Christmas na.

Don't wanna feel down on this cold holiday season, while carolers are everywhere singing yuletide carols and everyone's preparing for Misa de Gallo. Parang ayoko atang ma-OP.

Pero hinde mo mapipigilan ang sitwasyong dumadating sa buhay mo.

A friend confided his problem to me and with what he had told me...I felt really bad.

His girlfriend broke up with him.

Uhhmm...ok...ano bang pakealam ko diba?

Simple lang...sa'ken siya nagkukuwento.

I'm the listener now. Dati kase, siya ang nakikinig sa mga kuwento ko. So I think I owe him a lot for all those advices he'd given me when I needed it most. It's my time to lend an ear.

So 'yon nga, nagulat ako when he said his girlfriend broke up with him. Few months ago kase they had this vacation in Boracay where he intended to propose, unfortunately hinde natuloy dahil hinde siya nakabili ng engagement ring. (wow! hahaha...kinapos eh! :P) But nevertheless, the time they spent there together was as clear as the crystal he's about to give her, a promising love of a lifetime.

He thought nothing could go wrong. And I also did.

But there are things that'll just surprise you and strike you when you least expect it...my friend didn't realize her girl was already drifting away.

Few months after their vacation, he got really busy with his exhibits. Nawalan na sila ng communication and they rarely see each other. He became very complacent, he thought she was just there doing her thing and he was there doing his. She demanded for his time, she did things just to be with him, but he remained insensitive.

Akala niya, ok pa ang lahat. E kaso hinde na pala.

Unti-unti, nawawala na pala ang babaeng mahal niya, hinde niya namalayan, hinde niya napansin.

He didn't realize, the love he was holding on was already gone. Her girl has already lost her grip. And now, she's not the same person who promised to share that lifetime of love with him...

...hinde na siya sigurado, parang hinde na niya gusto.

Then comes the most painful words a partner could ever hear, words as painful as afflicted wounds, "AYOKO NA, BREAK NA TAYO."

Parang nagunaw ang mundo, parang kung may UNDO sa buhay, ibabalik niya lahat sa unang step, sa NEW.

Haayy...sabi nga nila, huli na ang lahat, ngayon ka pa lang nagising. Pero there's nothing wrong in doing everything just to WIN YOUR LOVE BACK.

Kaya si lalake, todo-effort! Kung may grade para sa kanya, A+ ang ibibigay ko.

It's so sad to hear stories like that, I've been there...a lot of times!

But I don't know how it feels to be dumped on Christmas season. (ang alam ko lang, ang ma-dump ng paulit-ulit. Ako na yata ang pinakamatibay na babaeng nakaranas ng ganon.)

Parang ang lungkot, parang mapapakanta at mapapaiyak talaga ako sa kantang PASKO NA SINTA KOOOOO...haaayy!

Saklap pag iniiwan ka ng taong mahal mo. Siguro hinde pa nila nararamdaman maiwan ng taong mahal nila, at kung hinde pa, masuwerte sila...hinde nila pasan ang mundo!

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Napaisip tuloy ako...(sabi ko na nga ba ayoko ng ganitong topic eehh...)

Baket ganon?

Nagkulang ba ako sa time? O sumobra?

Naging demanding ba ako? O nagkulang siya?

Naging lenient ba siya? O naging mahigpit ako?

Naging mabait ba ako? O sobrang sama ko lang talaga?

Either way...isa lang ang kinababagsakan.

Para akong nasa isang larong habulan, monkey-monkey-anabel, langit-lupa, touch-taya...

...lagi akong balagoong...lagi akong taya...lagi ako ang humahabol.

Laging ako ang gumagawa ng paraan para maabot ko siya.

Pero malayo na siya, hinde ko na maabutan.

Tapos na ang laro.

At sa larong 'to, isa lang ang talo,

ang balagoong...ang laging naiiwan.